Why We Walk

Many of you know about our commitment to the March of Dimes, and that we walk and fundraise every year for the March for Babies. Sure, we've had preemies. Sure, we think it's a great organization. And yes, we truly do believe that the March of Dimes is dedicated to healthy pregnancies & babies! But for us, and most family teams that participate, it is so much more and there is normally a defining moment for Why We Walk.

At the March for Babies 2014, I was pregnant with Paisley then (upper left)

Lined up for the March (upper right) With our company team, Family Health Care (bottom)

When I spoke at a kickoff campaign last year for the first time, telling our story, I brought myself to tears. Not that I was that eloquent. pfft. No, I started crying because the memory I shared was SO VIVID, even 2 years later, with a happy, healthy baby...correction, toddler! sitting there wreaking havoc in the room. I am glad for the opportunity for donors and fundraisers alike to get the chance to see firsthand a family that has been neck-deep in the NICU, with firsthand experience to what kinds of education and support the March of Dimes provided. But more importantly, I wanted to share what was the driving force and motivation behind our commitment. I wanted them to know .... and so, with just under 2 weeks before we walk again, I want you to know as well, exactly Why We Walk.

...it does not get any easier - no matter how many times you've done it before...

It was discharge day for me, March 4th, 2011. I'd had an emergency C-section, and had been deemed fit to go home. I was ready to a certain extent. Certainly sore, who isn't? But mentally... I had no idea. They discharged me, and Kevin helped me down the stairs to Ella's room. By then she had been moved to Pod 8, and we had the routine of checking in, scrubbing, dropping off breastmilk - down to a science. I went in and I held her hand through the incubator window. We stayed for several hours, until shift change, and then reluctantly made our way down to the car. We were going home, without our baby. But I was determined to be a grown-up about this. I knew she was in the best of care, that her doctors and nurses were highly competent medical professionals. In fact, I knew she was receiving better care than I could possibly give at that moment. But we were leaving our baby. That's what it boiled down to in my head. I remember getting in the car, Kevin making sure everything was packed up tightly, even coming over to check that I was seatbelted properly. And then we started the drive home. We made it about 4 minutes. Right after you get on I-4 off Kaley, about 20 feet further... before he pulled over to the shoulder. And he reached over the console, held my hand and we sat there in silence, crying. My silent tears eventually turned into sobs, because in my head, all I could hear was this voice saying, "THIS IS NOT RIGHT! This is NOT the way it should be! No parents should ever have to leave their babies!" and I think I was hoping my crying would drown out that voice. That is Why We Walk.

Fast forward 2 years later... the same scenario is playing in my head. I was discharged just 2 days after Paisley was born. I pep-talked myself into handling this better. "We've been through this before" - "Same old song and dance" - "She's in the BEST CARE POSSIBLE" - "You can handle this!" - "You have 2 babies at home that need you" and again "We've been through this before"  But no matter the litany of go-getter-you-can-do-it phrases I told myself... it didn't make it any easier. I didn't even make it out of the driveway in front of the hospital before I gave in to the tears. This time, Kevin just pulled into the parking garage and we sat there together, holding hands until he got out of the car and came and just held me. Some things make a marriage fall apart and some make them stronger. I like to think we've been through the sickness and worse part of our vows in the first few years of our marriage, so we should have smoother sailing for the rest. But that moment there, was this glaring truth that it does not get any easier - no matter how many times you've done it before. And we've been down this route 3 times too many. That is Why We Walk.

We hope that one day, enough research, education and treatments will have accumulated to the point where no parents will ever experience the devastating loss of a child be it a miscarriage or stillbirth (the statistics for how common pregnancy loss occurs is staggering!). We hope that one day NICU nurseries will not be filled to capacity. But for us, the Adkins Family aka Team Adkins Asylum, we hope that when your little bundle of joy is brought into this world... that you get to experience the JOY of bringing her home, surrounded by family and love and never the loss, devastation, and even guilt... of driving away that first time. That is Why We Walk.

How can you help? Donate, Walk/Join/Create a Team, Start a fundraiser!

A bicyc... erm, stroller built for TWO!

We have been running back and forth trying to find a stroller/pram that will work for both Ella and Paisley now that Paisley will be coming home soon. Who knew what an adventure that would be?! After visiting several different retailers, we had decided to go the route of a tandem stroller - mainly because I have difficulty pushing a single stroller through a doorway... so the thought of trying to maneuver one twice the width was a bit daunting to me. Let me first start off by stating that we borrowed a friends stroller and ultimately decided that it wasn't going to work. That's what brought us to the Contours Options Elite Tandem Stroller. We bought this at BuyBuyBaby, and I very rarely endorse any particular store... HOWEVER - we received the BEST customer service. The most knowledgeable floor associates and helpful management team I have ever had the pleasure of working with. Just wish they were closer to where we lived. In any event, the bottom line is that we LOVE our Options Elite. 

As seen in the picture below, we love the versatility of the carriage with the seats! With Paisley being so tiny, having come home from the hospital at just under 5lbs., we had to get a certain car seat. Unfortunately, it was not compatible with many other travel systems. We loved that the Options Elite came with a universal adapter bar (be sure to check that your model car seat works, as not every seat will work). As she transitioned into the regular seat, she was able to sit upright and look around. We like to face Ella and Paisley to one another, as they like to giggle and stuff. But there are also occasions when we just like to flip them around as well. One of the major selling points for me was the side zipper in the underneath storage. There is nothing more frustrating than trying to get something out from under the stroller and having to fight because the seat is there. The Options Elite has a zipper on both sides. That's right, BOTH SIDES. I loved it!

   

I honestly only had 2 complaints. 1 - it's a bit bulky/heavy for my liking. Mind you, this is a double stroller. I have to remind myself of this. And while yes, the aluminum frame is more lightweight than others... I had a bit of difficulty picking it up to put in the truck. 2 - accessories are not included. And by accessories, I mean the drink tray particularly. I've never seen a stroller that didn't come standard with the tray... so it was a bit of a surprise to learn that those were additional. We did get them, mind you. Along with the rain covers, the parent console (a neoprene like zippered bag with areas for your phone and a bottle) and the shopping bag attachment if you happen to be out and about with only 1 child. 

After the purchases though, I'm a happy camper. The 4 wheels handle most terrains easily, and you can easily push the stroller with one hand, although 2 hands on anything I'm steering makes me feel more comfortable! The Options Elite comes in several different canopy color options, but I fell in love with the Laguna Blue with the chevron pattern on the inside. They are easy to clean and there is a zippered mesh section that you can unzip to allow more airflow in the buggy. Highly recommended!